Dear readers,

I'm 11 months older since the first journal I wrote on deviantart now. My life has definitely improved since January 2008. Of course every year has its ups and downs, but in the beginning of last year I thought I'd never experience a merry moment ever again. Well, I was quite wrong back then. It's a pity I didn't know the things I know now; it would have spared a whole lot of my energy.

At then end of February I got in contact with a Dutch Forum Administrator, named Valruin. We chit chatted a bit in the Dutch section, laughed and teased each other. I learnt how to use Google, so I decided to search for more information about this interesting human being. Very soon I found his msn-address, and I simply couldn't resist adding him to my contacts list.
Besides, it's better to communicate by msn, so that we spare the forum from our spam.
He also gave me a sneak preview in the still closed areas ingame. We also arranged a few ingame weddings together. Ah, I miss those good old times. We had much fun. At least I had.
We tried to level up together, but I'm very bad at this game (I get distracted easily) so before I knew it he was 10 levels above me! Since I'm a noob in levelling he bought me 6 levels, so that I had a level 70 char as well. He also gave me two games as a present for my birthday and defeating him in an msn-game (minesweeper). He's a quite witty guy, but he has gained my full trust. I'm really happy to have him as a friend of mine. He always found a way to cheer me up and made me laugh when I felt bad.
Until now I never found a way to thank him for all he did. Sometimes I don't know what to do without him.
So I want to thank Valruin for all the times he has cheered me up again and for everything he has done for me. Thank you so much.

I completed my High School, with great marks. My lowest mark was for economics, a 6 (on a scale from 1 - 10). I'm pretty satisfied with my results and diploma. There's not much to say about that, except for the fact I miss my teachers sometimes.

In the summer's holidays I got a job as waitress in a beach restaurant. It was a nice job and I had a few nice times there. I remember the first time I let a glass of beer slip off my tray. I was totally embarrassed and my face turned red. But, as they say, there's a time for everything. And you've got to learn from your mistakes. Well, I think I've been cursed, since I make the same mistakes over and over again. But besides that accident I might consider to work there in 2009 again. Who knows...

I, as a scouting leader, went on summer's camp with around 20 girls around the age of 7 to 11 years old. Together with my scouting colleague, her mother, two close friends of mine and someone from the scouting administration we spent a week in Utrecht. The theme of the summer's camp was Asterix and Obelix. It's not hard to guess which character I played. It was a very good but tiring week. I've got a whole bunch of good memories about that time.

I started my study at the Graphic Lyceum as well. After one night, without sleep and hard working (I even began to shiver cuz of sleep deprivation) I managed to pass the admission exam. This study lasts 3 years (4 years officially) in which the first 2 years, of the official one, which are filled with theory, are put in one year. The first period of my new study was energy draining. I was exhausted and I was longing for a holiday. I had to get up at 5:30 AM and I got home at 7:00 PM every week (except for Thursday and Friday, when I arrived at home at 4:00 PM or 5:00 PM) I had to struggle to keep up with the rest of my class. Now I've arrived at level 2 out of 5. At the end of this year I need to reach level 3 at least. We'll see whether I manage it. At least the assignments are very challenging, I never get bored and I have 2 very nice and silly classmates to support me.

I want to end this journal with the announcement I started to work on a magazine for Crogge's Server, together with Nick. The first issue has been released already and I'm very proud on what Nick, I and two of our illustrators have achieved.
Nick is a very nice guy. I'm very happy he's helping me with the magazine, even though in the end he does way more than I'm doing. So a very big thank you to the best magazine maker, Nick!

Well, I think I did a pretty good job last year, don't you think? At least...
- I've been chasing fantasies a whole year long (I wanted to love someone, but it ended not the way I was hoping for).
- I've lost a friend (I didn't have enough time for her, neither did I put any effort in it).
- There was a tense atmosphere between my best friends and me. The reason was summer's camp. We talked it over and now everything is fine again. Later on I've went to the theatre with one of them, the other one writes lovely poems now.
- I had a nervbreaking moment when we had 3 clogged toilets while we were having a weekend's camp of scouting.
- I'm still single.
- I'm still daft as well.
- I've got a huge stamp pressed on my forehead with the word 'GOTHIC' on it. Well, actually I can laugh about that one.

In 2009 I definitely want to go to the Keltfest and Castlefest, since I'm a really big fan of fantasy stories and Celtic music. I think I'm going to faint when I'm able to hug the artists of the band Omnia. Maybe I'll even buy a Victorian 'gothic' dress. I'm really looking forward to it.

I also decided to press the infamous resetbutton. I want to start all over again, to clean up my life a bit. I'm leaving all the experiences with my friends and myself behind and I'll see what they'll surprise me with this year. The gates of my heart are fully unlocked. Please, come in, and drink a cup of coffee with me. I want to celebrate this new year, this new me.
To cut long stories short I simply erased all the feelings for every single person I know and I'm starting to build relationships up from scratch again. So it's time to put one's shoulder to the wheel and to start with a clean slate. ^^